answered prayers are not always what you want

so, i've been fighting with whether to move back to Texas for the past few days, since dad went into the hospital, and i've been praying that God would tell me what needs to be done. So, yesterday at church the spirit was moving strong as it has for the past few months and i went up to the alter and asked God what i should do.
Now, I'm not a big God talker as i have a bit of a stubborn streak in me and think that i know what's best for me and mine but i know it comes from growing up in the family i did as we are big do it yourself-ers, but i have learned over the past few years that I really am not in control and should rely on those better suited (God) to help me out. So, in my mind I hear "go sit down and open your walls", which i do as I don't always feel comfortable showing emotion in front of large groups of people. When i sat down I heard "you want to be with your family but don't you realize that you already are? Texas is not where you need to be now". That broke me instantly as it's not what i wanted to hear but knew was coming. Then He said "while you may not be there in person, your spirit is always there". Then Brian Grey came out of nowhere and leaned into me and said "You heard what He just said to you? Now is the time for you to become what He has always had for you. You need to be the Daddy you are meant to be." Well, the tears came pretty easy after that.
How can i empart knowledge to others when I fight so hard against giving myself over to ultimate knowledge? If i become a better man in Christ, the way i carry myself will transfer over and those around me will know that the change in me is because of Him. This spreads to my family in Texas as they see me as a rock of support and faith. They know where it comes from allready but now, i know that I have limited time to really show them and why it's so important to me that they understand.
I know I may not be there when family members pass on, but knowing that I told them of the light I have within me and where it comes from, makes all the difference. They believe in God but like so many others today, that's where it stops. Now I need to step up to the plate and let them know the Truth. Nice thing about it is that I don't have to do it by myself, I have friends and loved ones that will be happy to help and that fills me with joy. Please keep me and mine in your prayers, there's some rough waters ahead but I can see the light.